Thursday, September 22, 2011


Hey ya'll,

I just wanted to check in before my next competition, the Ironman, on Saturday. I don't know why but my confidence is low, my stress is high, and I feel like I am not ready at all! Please pray for confidence, joy and most of all- sanity haha.

I chalk half of it up to a less than perfect week of my diet, coupled with lots of tests in school, bad-skin (break-outs ugh), no sleep, and waaayyyy too much on my plate with school and work; plus way to little in my bank account haha. All those factors and missing church and my Friday night college church group have contributed to lowered self confidence and fear of failure!

I got such great feedback on my preformance in the competition at the Olympia this weekend, and from interacting with industry professionals such as photographers and fitness celebrities that I am now afraid to fail! I know this is what I want to be doing, but I also know I am terrified to death of trying too hard and stealing my joy and making it no longer fun.

I just need to remember that the goal is to just share my love for this sport and inspire others to get out there and overcome their fears to do something they love too. Something that they can share with others and practice determination, self control, and using God's power to accomplish their goals.

I love seeing others suceed and it's so gratifying to have even a small part in it. It makes me feel so much more at ease and full of joy that God IS using me the way I was hoping he was! 

Anywho, if ya wanna stop by and see all the action there's directions and show info for the Ironman if you click here.

Goodnight friends and thanks for listening :)

" So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
~  Isaiah 41:10


1 comment:

  1. Keep it up! I'm scared to death of most things I will become, but I think that is all part of it. If you didn't really care, you wouldn't be scared. I want to become a writer, and it scares me everyday. But I love the rush, and I know the fear and pain is all an illusion.